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Remonstrance

Swimming through a sea of dross Conflicted by the tide of the autotuned Shattered and destroyed like Milo Wishing the sound would stop Because I would like to relax Give me a break, will ya, please The valley of the underwhelming Is slapped up against the sea of the banal I can only find surfeit in the cold comfort The embrace of the different, The difficult, the wordy,  the obtuse The uncommercial, the unredemptive The challenging, the posed What gets in? Top 40 pap? Billious rot? The challenge is to shut it out. Gimme a hand, will ya? Please.

Loss and Reclamation: My Personal Path to Healing after Graduate School

Over the past few years, I feel like I have begun to slowly unravel. I feel like I lost part of myself that I might not be able to reclaim. I am far more tired than I feel I have the right to be. But I also have never learned how not to be hard on myself. A colleague told me recently that "you are always so hard on yourself. You have to learn your self worth." Nothing could be truer, but it is hard to rediscover my value because of my own negative thoughts and self-deprecation. All the stress from my PhD studies is finally catching up with me. When I was working on my dissertation, I never had that much time to worry because I was so busy trying to get it done. Now I feel even busier. I teach five classes and have five tutoring sessions on top of it. I am working on an article that does not seem to be gelling quite like I want it to, and I hope that I can eventually catch up on sleep. My stress management seems to be failing me. I get home after a busy day at work and pre...

365 Films in 2017 #359-365

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359. Jamaica Inn (1939), Alfred Hitchcock, Mayflower 360. Attenberg (2010), Athina Rachel Tsangari 361. Stagecouch (1939), John Ford, United Artists 362. Eating Raoul (1982), Paul Bartel, 20th Century Fox 363. Charulata (1964), Satyajit Ray, R.D. Bansal & Company 364. Les Diaboliques (1955), Henri-Georges Clouzot, Cinedis 365. Sicario (2015), Denis Villeneuve, Lionsgate

The Legacy of the Joke Band (Disguised as an Analysis of Ween): Part One

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Recently, my friend Joe and I were continuing our age-old battle concerning the merits of Ween, a band that is often labeled a joke band, who recently broke up after years of creating musically proficient, genre-bending "joke" songs. A quick search on the internet shows that Ween has battled this label for years, and they probably tend to even welcome it, given such song titles as "Poop Ship Destroyer" and "Spinal Meningitis (Got Me Down)." Yet in later years, the boys in Ween proved excellent songwriters, who could assemble a killer band. Their various pastiches of different genres helped define the "Ween Sound," a far-reaching enterprise, indeed. Whether creating twisted country records with actual country session musicians on 1996's 12 Golden Country Greats , giving into their psychedelic tendencies completely on 1997's The Mollusk , or perfecting the pop song throughout their catalog, Ween always surprised. The Zappa comparisons wer...

The Constant Agitation of Fiction

I often feel the pull of the written word, encouraging me to read and write fiction far more than I have time for. Yet I have so many stressors in my life, pulling me in all directions, halting my efforts and sapping my strength. It is all I can do to put a few words down on paper for a book chapter I am working on or scribble a few notes for my movie list. I write this from the standpoint of finishing my doctoral dissertation in the spring, teaching the equivalent of six courses, and trying my best to seek tenure. During these rough spells, I have been trying to read fiction and slowly writing a little. Someday I hope to get back to my manuscript and at least finish one novel or a few short stories or pull a few more of my grey hairs out. I take comfort in the fact that many are late bloomers to this fiction game. However, I have been writing fiction for more than two decades and have never taken it all that seriously. It is a given, but there is something to be said for sitting dow...